#tw for suicidal ideation I guess...

[toto-4444]

[crowiin]

ace from “mark for mark and sin for sin” by @midnightluck. it’s a delightfully painful sickfic with a twist on the regular tropes

[goingferalapparently]

I know I'd go back to you

the original spitballing of ideas i did, and the link to the video this conversation is from.

i miss them so much

[johnny-depplyloveyou]

How many Gale art are you going to draw?

Yes

Are you going to finish any of them?

...

I'll try

[cadaver-moss]

For any of my mutuals, please DM me if there’s an OC of mine you want. Just in case something happens to me.

[justaz]

merlin still roams the earth thousands of years later yet arthur hasn’t risen. his hope has been waning for millennia and he’s been scraping the bottom of the barrel for centuries, his hope being a meager thing - barely tangible. it’s more caution than anything, he’s been getting by these last few decades on the thought “what if i give up right before he comes back?? just wait another year” and he’s held on for more than fifty years by that. then…nothing. absolutely nothing. not even a ripple in the lake. he’s still alone.

that’s when his barrel has been scraped clean, he has no hope nor caution to carry on anymore. the dragon got one last manipulation in before the end causing merlin to live for centuries upon centuries in agony and despair, held together by false hope that hurts more than arthur’s death did. though maybe that’s time talking, he’s pretty sure he was comatose for a couple of centuries after arthur died, but the sentiment remains.

he marches down to lake avalon and greets freya though she hasn’t responded since arthur passed. he requests excalibur, and she does not respond. he asks again. still nothing. again. nothing. he demands this time for her to give him the damn blade. she does not. for the first time in millennia, he uses magic to draw the blade out but something tugs the sword back, refusing him his last request.

he yells in frustration sending small waves across the still water. he tries again and again but freya doesn’t budge. he falls to his knees, tears escaping his eyes, and shouts for her to give him the sword so he can finally put an end to his agony. arthur isn’t coming back, he can’t keep wandering. he’s exhausted, he’s run out of hope. he just wants to rest. he gently attempts to coax the sword out with his magic one last time but freya still holds it from him.

[ourflagmeansgayrights]

the fact that hornigold is a manifestation of ed's self-loathing so anything hornigold says is stuff ed's saying to himself

the fact that after hornigold throws the rock off the cliff and ed goes flying off the cliff he chuckles to himself and says "you're welcome old chum" like he's doing ed a favor

the fact that ed is falling to his death and screaming panicking and fighting against it but there's still a part of himself that's standing there watching and laughing about it.

anyway this renew as a crew rewatch is going great im having a blast

[zimanddibromance]

Uh TW for suicide attempt, sorta

There’s a bit more to this that would make things easier to understand but that would mean i’d have to split this up into like 3 parts instead of 2 and I don’t like that LOL

Anyway this is just part one, I bet you’re wondering why I even drew something like this. It was 3 am and I was having terrible art block and I just forced myself to make “something, anything” and this is that’s something anything LOL

Part One

Part Two <- is next

[superbellsubways]

i. forgot i made this

[leafwateraddict]

Huge trigger warning for openly talking about wanting to commit suicide

Pretty much summed up some old feelings I used to have towards sans and Undertale as a whole? I’ve gotten better since, but it definitely feels nice to get them out.

Transcript in case you cant read my handwriting:

I’m going to do it. I will. I cant stand to live anymore.

Do you even have any idea how?

No clue. But it has to be done.

What do you think waits for us..?

Fire. We deserve it.

Fair.

There are things we will lose.

Of course.

These little characters… this little world this mind cannot seem to let go of…

You Must Purge It.

We Must Purge it.

In Order To Die

We Must Detach Ourse-

whoa-! calm down kid… not gonna hurt ya…

You.

the one and only.

I am too attached to you.

If I can finally remove you…

kid-

You stupid stupid anchor-

kid stop- you know you dont want that.

i do! More than anything! If I think about one thing more than you, it’s death! I… I need this to end sans. This game is the only thing that makes me get out of bed. I’m too dependent on this.

It doesn’t even matter does it? I’m too much of a coward to go through with it…

you’re not a coward for being scared of ending your life kiddo.

I can’t do this anymore.

…i know

[maidofmetal]

I have an appointment tomorrow to talk to my gyno about getting my ovaries out due to severe pmdd. she doesn't recommend it unless I'm already on a high dose of testosterone but I have only ever attempted suicide during a pmdd episode. its both impossible and EXCRUCIATING trying to heal from going on 20 years of suicidal ideations n behaviors when every two weeks I'm on hormone induced suicide watch -_- I literally cannot live like this I will keep trying to kms even tho all the other times my suicidal ideations are at least manageable. I'll straight up rip them out myself if I have to

[seimsisk]

I suddenly kinda get the annoyance at the "my intrusive thoughts made me eat a leaf" thing

I've been dealing with intrusive thoughts saying "hey throw yourself out the window" "hey stretch your arm out the escalator and get it stuck on the next floor" which are actually fucking scary and even simpler stuff like "it would be fun to just throw this plate on the wall and see it smash" which... I mean that would have Consequences... and seeing people joke about silly thoughts that would have zero negative consequences is a bit... demoralizing... like I can eat a leaf. that's literally harmless. nobody even gets hurt. nobody gets their arm horribly broken. nobody dies.

[auphelia]

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[zibah-ho]

Ollie and death green arrow year one edition

if this hellsite fucks the layout one more time istg

[q-writes]

[alaskan-wallflower]

(vent in the tags and under the cut. don’t read if you don’t want.)

sometimes i wonder if people would care if i was gone. there’s just no point anymore tbh.